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this song was rough. obviously it's written about spring but i'm not uploading until summer. there were plenty of other things taking up my attention this spring but also this song just about killed me. no matter how many times i recorded it I hated the way it sounded even though I legitimately like the song. I guess no matter how much I recorded and re-recorded it sounded like a crappy demo version of what I wanted it to sound like which is big and booming and angsty with lots of drums and the piano crashing and rhythmically solid instead of stumbled over and off. I need to be done with this song at least for now so even though I don't love how it sounds I'm letting it go. And I'm letting whoever finds it to hear it.

I'm a spring baby (literally, I was born in May) and the song is about celebrating a birthday in quarantine and watching the world bloom around me while I feel creatively stuck and constantly comparing myself to the beauty around me. It's also hopeful. I'll keep going. I'll push through the quarantine. I'll push through my creative blocks. I'll push through that negative voice in my head. I'll bloom.

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We go on
What else can we do?
The flowers in my garden begin to bloom
I watch the blossoms drift to the ground
Damn I'm getting older. I'm getting older now.

And that was always true but now I have time to think
To think and think and overthink
My minds an overflowing sink
Of all that I miss. Oh how I long
I write a list another list of what I need to move on.

chorus:
I'm a spring baby, I'm a delicate flower.
My petals shaking I'm not immune
To the wind as it spins it's tearing me apart
I hope the sun will shine soon
If I'm a spring baby, let me bloom

I get so angry at the beauty in my yard
I'm exhausted of looking at myself so long and hard
Thinking I cannot compare
Thinking I cannot achieve.
Their pretty, their perfection. Oh GOD I need to breathe.

(chorus)

Another hour, more time
I will make it through this I will see the other side.
Another day, more time
I will make it through this I will see the other side.
Another month more time
I will make it through this I will see the other side.

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from quarantine songs, released April 11, 2020

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Kaysy Conundrum Seattle, Washington

"Too pop for musical theatre, too musical theatre for pop"

My songs are theatrical pop ditties with me & my piano. Some harmonies thrown in for good measure.

Used to do YouTube & now I'm attempting to make better sounding versions of new songs, old, as well as covers. This is for the fun of it will be "name your own price"so please don't feel guilty downloading for free. ... more

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